I'm dying! Dying! Dying!

Sob sob sob..!

Its only the 2nd day of school and "MAN MY BRAIN CELLS ARE DYING REAL SOON"!Wondering why?The reason is simple,i'm struggling in maths.Its for real and i'm serious about it.In the past i don't even bother to study maths when theres exam because i'm sure i will fail.That result in weak maths foundation and thats a crucial problem.However Poly requires maths!Haha..this is such a cruel fact to me.You can ask me memories wordings but not numbers.My mind can't seem to function when i see numbers all over the place or should i say i'm only able to memories words.You can dump me with a whole stack of notes with wording and asking me memorise it but please don't ever dump me with just a single maths worksheet.It will take me many many tiring hours and days of hardwork to finish it.I'm not lying about it..its true!I got a 5 for "N" level maths and i can tell you that i don't deserve that 5 marks at all.I did not study for it at all and i passed,i remember kenny saying at least you pass it.However the point is that i know myself to well that the 5 points i got are simply because maybe the markers pity me.My target for this year is pass maths!I want it badly and i need to study harder then anyone to achieve that target.Simply because i'm a slow learner and whatever others learn in just an hour will take me probaly 3hrs.I have to study twice as hard then any other one of them in my class.Its totally true!

Someone pretty cool out there told me something this year again that gives me the extra sort of motivation.I mean motivation as in a"rather offensive phrase".By the way thank you for it i will take it as a way to give myself the motivation.I remember i told Sujun before taking my N level exams that i will make sure she can see me this year in school and similarly this year i promise right here that i will make sure i will pass maths in "o" level.I know i can't possbliy pass maths in just a few weeks or month but willing to take the extra hardwork that i have to put in.Its going to be exhausting mentally but i believe that can achieve that.Mistakes comes before success,2007 will be the year of harvest for me!Woosh!Haha..!=) Its a Promise!