Before i say anything i think i should start of this post with some pictures that i took a couple of days ago.

Wassup!


Yeah twist


Acting cute...


YU ZHI YONG CALLS FENELLIN "YE REN"!

FENELLIN TOLD HIM"I'M YE REN AND YOU ARE BABOON"!

WE ALL LIVE IN THE JUNGLE..

Khei messaged me yesterday and asked if i could sent a message to coach on behalf of the team to pledge coach to stay.I thought it over and i asked myself a question,thats"are we worthy of her staying and we can't promise her anything.We can't make empty promise like telling her we will win SMSS and in the end not winning it.I guess it will make her more upset and so do all of us.Well maybe she will not even believe our promise either since its like we are always saying yes we will try our best in the match and in the end..we still did not do what we promise.We went two CCAB for 2 times in a week and yet each time when we return back to school,my eyes never fail to have tears glistering in it.I tried to control myself yesterday but i failed,i cried when i saw Weiyi's face filled with dissapointment and tears.Suddenly i can feel tears starting to gather around my eyes and within seconds my tears flow down like tap water uncontrolbally.I struggle to utter the word "sorry"in a voice choking manner.She replied by saying its ok but the gulit still lives with me.

In the end after much trying coach called shanel back so everyone of us were scared to say anything and in the end we were pushing each other to say it out.In the end i was fustrated and so i thought ok i will say it.I spoke in chinese to her and my mind when blank at first,as i could not find the correct chinese words to express what i mean and i think my words were unclear as well.Luckily she understands it,yes she was calm in the conversation and not that scary as i thought.We did some thinking during that short conversation,it really makes sense.I agree with coach on some issues but not all.She's right in the sense that yes we should really give each other sometimes to think it through if we were improve even if she continue teaching.For me i agree with it when i think sensibily and i agree with her that even if she continues and we don't make improvement there no point to it.However in a more emotional and unsensible way its just that my feeling is getting the control of me,if the fact is i realise that maybe she's not suitable i would't want her to leave the team.I'm being to emotional if thats the case and i guess thats the case for most of them.Whatever it is all this thinking and sorting out of emotion will come after the match.

At the end of the day the decisions lies in coach hands and whatever it is i guess most of us will respect her decisions.