A moment ago i thought to myself,how great will it be if i am the only child.Sometimes i do envy those who are the only child,they can have all their parents love and concern.Mum and dad always hurt me in one way or another.Be it their words or action.Maybe it was unintentional but still it hurts alot.When my brother told them that he had a chance to go over to Jarkata for a school exchange pro gramme,my parents were thrilled and so proud of him.Mum said to me "see he have a chance to go oversea unlike you,study for 5 years but achieve nothing.It was just a casual talk but ended up hurting my pride.My brother then will start adding salt to my wound.It sucks seriously.I think my brother is rather arrogant to a very large extend.He told my parents and myself that he wants to enter normal academic stream and my parents really believe him.Dad even told him right in my face that it is good if he have such ambition so that he won't end up walking the same path as me.

I am sure everyone understands his sentence,it mean more then what it appears to be.They wanted to employ my brother a English tutor and when i told them that actually i could help him they rejected.Dad coax me by saying that he was afraid i might not be able to handle teaching him after i started school.Mum and brother on the other hand was very straight forward.Mum told me off by saying that"you still there to harbor thoughts of teaching him when you score a pathetic C6 in 0 level.Well yeh C6 suck,my brain suck and i am dumb.Only fucking idiots like me get fucking C6 and worst E8.My brother followed up by saying that he don't want Ite student teaching him.Well yes they can't get a non Ite student to teach their kid otherwise he will end up like me.

Sometimes i wonder why they are still practicing favoritism.It is already the 21 century and this kind mind set should already be abolish.However from what i can see,the tradition still continues till today.