Winning matters alot!

I suppose this is my strength and also weakness.On one hand i work and fight very hard in order to win but on the other hand its my down fall to.Whenever i lose..i can't accept the fact and i ask myself why and why.During my 5 years stay in the basketball team i encounter numerous time of failer and each time i try to put on a smile even if we lose.I remember whenever we lose and get back to school after tournament i always torture and venge my anger on myself.I remember once i failed to score 2 free throws in the tournaments and cost us alot of points,everyone was upset with my performance.Right away after we reach school i went to shot hundreds over free throws,go for running,push ups and many more.Kevin told me its ok to lose but don't lose your determination.I ignore him and kept running till i really collapse,deep inside i'm feeling terrible.Each time we lose,each time i torture myself.I really don't hope to lose tomorrow because i just havew this habit of self tortuing.Hmm i sick in my mind i guess.Can't help it really!(WO SHUI BU QI),i admit.

Today everyone that helped us in one way or another nearly collapse due to exhaustion.Thank you everyone,Huishan,Jiajun,Wantian,Winnie,Rahman,Jansher,Zul,the 5c malay guy,samuel,Titi,Paulina,Steve,Khenghoe,Chong Yang and everyone who has helped us in one way or another.My sincer thanks to all of you.Love you guys.

Tonight i will think to the best of my ability of what i can help the team tomorrow to win.I promise tomorrow i'm going to use all my brain cells and put my egos aside in order to win.Winning is sooo important to me.Tomorrow the four of us,Eleena,Azean,Zhi yong and myself promise to give all that we have got and do Queenstown secondary proud.Since i have not really contribute much to the school as i always fail in basketball so heres the best chance for me to do it now.I will not let Miss han down,she's the one who groom us and i will not let others say that we as her students are lousy.