Alright want to know what's my secret motivation for studying?

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I tell myself "WO KE YI"!So lame!


Dawnson NTUC mirror.

I'm dissapointed with my mid year english composition writing,i might not enter that course but well i won't give up.My dissapointment is totally beyond description however even if i am not part of the course i think it will only make me work doubly hard.Its my silly mistake and i know i have to face the music alone.Therefore i have decided to turn rejection and dissapointment to a source of motivation.

*MY THOUGHTS*

Once again before i blog about something or write about certain character in it.I have to clearify that it does not refer to any particular person and to no particular incident.Don't make assumption because they are all "mother fuck up".It wll not be a offensive post,i promise but if you think you are a person with great pride,love assumptions and likes stirring up problems then the door is open for you to leave.Don't be a copy cat and use my words to say then why do you write things to arise assumption.My rebut is"are you sure your assumptions are right"?I am saying about my learning experience.

I don’t know how I’m going to go about in this post, because what I’m trying to say is so hard to put into a proper form but as I type, hopefully the right words would come from my heart..
I suppose my blog name "Retrospective"says alot about my character.It means, I think back a lot.Is that a good thing?I suppose it varies to different situation,this also makes an unforgiving person at times.Trust is supposingly the key factor to any relationship be it friends,family,couples.Yet i question it frequently,humans like us often make mistakes and i know some are inevitable yet some are avoidable.

As for me,i'm a unforgiving person as some may say.Yet the problem is some of us tend to break the trust and seek for forgiveness later.Is it aready to late?I'm a perfect example,i broke the trust coach have and when i repent later its aready to late.Things can't be undone anymore,i can revert back time.All i can say is "i'm sorry" and i know forgiving is certainly impossible.Be realistic,instant forgivance are rare and maybe they have never exist before.I know i can't dwell upon it and blame others about why they can't forgive me because i know that i should not have let them down in the first place.Saying i have change please forgive me or something like those are not what we should do.My question is "how many of us did not change,be it for the better or worst.Everyone of us have changed,yet the problem that most of us face is we dwell to much on how much we have changed and expect others to praise us for it.Maybe the solution to it is keep changing and move on with time,other wise the next moment you might find yourself being left struggling to cope with new changes.

One of my other purpose of writting this entry is that to say,the past will always be there, because past is what memories is.Yet don't disregard your past becuase they are your learning pointers to assure or remind you not to make the same mistakes.Wound takes time to heal and even if that happens the scare will always remain.Things can never be the same,my advise is move on with life.don't dwell on it anymore,don't ask why others can't forgive us.We can't keep pestering them to forgive us because we should not have done them wrong in the first place.Life is ever changing so the main thing now is keeping moving and never let the ever changing time
abundant us.