Its still CNY so Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone!

I know it has been a myth or something alike not to badmouth anybody or get scolded during cny.However forgive me for that,well well don't misunderstand becuase i'm not scolding anyone or badmouhing anyone here.I just wants to clearify certain issues that has been stalled so long till i could see thick layers of dusk on it.Some things have been kept so long in out hearts and many things have been swept under the carpet till the dusk accumulate so much till problems start to arise.

To me and all of you out there,i'm sure the word friendship holds a significan meaning to everyone of us.How many of us here can say that we doesn't need company of our friends or do we dislike their company.I guess most of us do like having friends around and to us the word friendship holds a whole full meaning to it and thats trust and communication.The word trust sounds so simple and the wording is just make up of 5 letters yet the true meaning to it is so deep to the extent not many can really explain it.I have said many many times before to my friends that i don't trust anybody in this realistic world and i'm not afraid to hid the fact that yes i don't trust any of you out there,even my close friends.Its not that i dislike anyone of you but its just that i was taught not to trust anyone other then yourself.

Sometimes i choose to close one eye on some issues which i think will be heal as times passed.Yet i was wrong,i'm quite open with this issue and i don't mind talking about it and even admitting my mistakes.However without the second part involve i am in no position to state anyone's name.I shall name her Dipsy,i'm sure she know who she is.You know when i read about your msn nick and in every of your every daily move i can sense that something is wrong about the word friendship.I choose to keep quiet and i know some of your words are refering to me,but all i can say is i'm not mad with it.Whatever vagularities it is..my mind is at peace.Yes i'm wrong when i said something bad about you before and i admit its my mistakes for it.Maybe you can try understanding from my point of view as well,i remember you asking me this question before"fen can tell me what bad habits i have so i can change or i had changed from the past till now".I remember i did reply you with an answer truly from my heart and from what i think as a friend.I did told you before that maybe you can try changing your temper.I understand that temper or character takes time to change so sometimes even when i am unhappy i choose to give in because you are my friend and i really want to see you change even more for the better.

I did think about talking to you calmly before about your pms mood and demanding character sometimes which i'm sorry to say.However when i think twice about it,i was reluctant becuase i understand that maybe you can't take it and might think that i was against you or i was way to proud about myself.Maybe you should really take some time,sit down and think carefully about what i had said and well for me i will do the same.My character ain't like some fairies which are so perfect so well i will reflect as well.

Its a long post,a long quarel which i think both of us are tired and exhausted by now.As i said,my mind is calm now and no angrer or hatred from those wording right now.You can choose to take what i have said or treat it as a piece of junk.The choice is up to you.My hands will always be open and welcome for a hand shake.