I guess some may know what i am going to blog about for today.Well your guessing is right if you are thinking about that.

In my 4 year playing for QTSS and this 5th and final year i have seens lots of ups and down in the team.Changing of coaches,inter conflict and many more.However this my first time seening a person whom i respect crying in front of me and what hurts the most is that you know you are the one who caused her to cry.She pin her hope on us and put her heart and soul in training us and yet what we give her in return is making her so upset.I have no words to describe how i feel when i see her cry because its such a heartbreaking experience that i don't want the team or her to go through again.I pity her for having such a team like us.We are not worthy at all,right from the start.What wrong did she do to deserve all this?Maybe the greatest mistake that she had made is choosing to coach us.What makes me feel so depressed is seening my own teamates laughing after she cried and left even without repending.However after i thought it over,i think maybe i'm to sensetive practically because different people expresss their feelings in different ways.Some like me cry when we are in that sort of situation while some remain to keep their feelings to themselves and not express them.

Right now i understand this logic which i failed to understand just now in school and in CCAB.Like what people say we must learn to see things in a wider perspective so that it will broaden your thinking and not thinking narrowly.Right now i only wish that the players in the team can think in Jiao Lian's perspective and understand what she's going through and how she's feeling.I am in no position to judge or comment on anyone because i know that nobody is perfect.Whats going to make me lost hope for the next match is that we continue to not take the match seriously.On the bus back to school i question myself"why did i choose to come back to the team when some don't wish to put their effort in the tournament"?From the moment i told Mr Imran i would play i told myself that i am going to at least try to win a match.This is my last year and i wants to win so badly.Why can't we break the curse of basketball girls losing every year?Why can't we prove to others that we are not losers but fighters?Why can't we?Maybe the problem is our mindset and how strong are our determination.I learn this quote from Alvin Chua and thats"i'm willing to put my heart and soul into the game in order to win".The question is will you all in the team help me acomplish this mission?

Coach pls dun give up on us in this crucial moment,the team needs you.